Grieving for a pet is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life.
For those who are not animal lovers, there is little understanding that the grief of losing a pet can be as profound as losing a human family member.
Last week, my beautiful little ginger boy was killed.
While some people might see him as “just a cat,” he was part of my family and one of my children. Losing him has been devastating.
I miss him like crazy and long for him to come home—meowing his way into the house, rubbing against my legs, jumping onto the bench and headbutting my husband when it was mealtime.
He had his own quirks, and I loved every one of them.
He was my sleeping buddy and slept beside me every night for nearly four years.
He left behind his brother, who is struggling after they spent nearly 11 years together. He barely leaves his room, isn’t eating properly and is sleeping more than usual.
I know he misses him too.
The house is quiet without him now, and things will never be the same.
I think that because I am an animal trainer, people may expect me to be okay with the death of one of my fur children—to accept it, come to terms with it, understand it and move on.
On the contrary, I cry every day for my little ginger boy, who was taken away so suddenly.
I feel very angry and very sad. He is in my thoughts every minute, and I will shed a tear for him each day, just as I have for my beautiful Border Collie, who passed away 11 months ago.
The pain is unbearable, and distraction is a helpful coping method for me at the moment.
Having to deal with the deaths of two of my fur children within 12 months is simply too much to bear. I loved them deeply, and each of them gave me such joy and fulfilment that life feels empty without them.
I am a robot, going through the motions.
They say that, with time, the pain will subside. It may ease somewhat, but it is always there in some form.
You carry it with you in your heart because all you have left are the precious memories created during the short time they were here.
Dogaholics Dog Training and Behaviour Services
Dogaholics is a dog training and behaviour service located in the Newcastle and Lake Macquarie area of NSW.



